Wednesday, December 24, 2025

Roll the Stone Aside!

In John 11 we are told of three siblings Lazarus, Mary and Martha. Lazarus was sick and the sisters sent for Jesus with the expectation that he would be healed. Their message to Jesus was "Lord, your dear friend is very sick".  

John 11:1-3

"A man named Lazarus was sick. He lived in Bethany with his sisters, Mary and Martha. This is the Mary who later poured expensive perfume on the Lord's feet and wiped them with her hair. Her brother, Lazarus was sick. So the two sisters sent a message to Jesus telling him, Lord, your dear friend is very sick."

At this moment, can you see Mary and Martha? They are filled with hope and expectation that their Lord, will heal Lazarus. I mean they know who Jesus is, the Messiah, the Son of God who came into the world from God, so there was no need to worry (John11:27). BUT what happens?! Even though Jesus loved these siblings he waited, and it wasn't just a 5 min, 1 hr, or day wait, it was two more days before he went!

John 11:4-6

"But when Jesus heard about it he said, Lazarus's sickness will not end in death. No, it happened for the glory of God so that the Son of God will receive glory from this. So although Jesus loved Martha, Mary, and Lazarus, he stayed where he was for the next two days. Finally, he said to his disciples, Let's go back to Judea."

 Reading this portion of the story tells me that God isn't worried or rushed by what I deem as urgent or necessary. There was urgency in the voice of the sisters, their brother is very sick and they need Jesus NOW! part of me wants to be like " that's God you are talking to, how can you say that" but on the other hand I see that I can do this exact thing although it may look a little different.... "God, my relationship status is crumbling you have to act now, before it's too late!"..."God, these application responses aren't looking good, I only have so long before it's too late!"..."God, what are you doing, it's too late for such and such to happen"..."God, so much time has passed, it's too late for me to change"....

 You see it's the "it's too late" mindset that will keep you from participating in or seeing the blessings of God, if you allow it to do so.  When Jesus finally made it to Bethany in Judea, Lazarus had been in his grave for four days. Mary and Marthas first words were "You are too late!! If only..." 

John 11: 20-32

 "When Jesus arrived at Bethany, he was told that Lazarus had already been in his grave for four days. Bethany was only a few miles down the road from Jerusalem, and many of the people had come to console Martha and Mary in their loss. When Martha got word that Jesus was coming, she went to meet him. But Mary stayed in the house. Martha said to Jesus, Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died. But even now I know that God will give you whatever you ask. Jesus told her your brother will rise again. Yes, Martha said, he will rise when everyone else rises at the last day. Jesus told her, I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this Martha? Yes Lord, she told him. I have always believed you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one who has come into the world from God. Then she returned to Mary. She called Mary aside from the mourners and told her, The Teacher is here and wants to see you. So Mary immediately went to him. Jesus had stayed outside the village, at the place where Martha met him. When the people who were at the house consoling Mary saw her leave so hastily, they assumed she was going to Lazarus's grave to weep. So they followed her there. When Mary arrived and saw Jesus she fell at his feet and said Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died."

Now even when writing this I can see the heart posture of each sister and I am reminded of the same Martha and Mary story back in Luke 10. Martha is busy trying to prepare for Jesus and disciples, Mary is at Jesus feet listening to his words. Now in John 11, both sisters are filled with sorrow and questions. Martha says to Jesus you are too late and even now I still believe. Mary falls at the feet of Jesus and tells Jesus her sorrow and disappointment. It's in these times of uncertainty, questions, and concern that you must remember and know who is your Lord. Who is the one that has the final say? Who is the one that has a faithfulness that will never falter?

As Jesus goes to the grave site, he tells the people to "Roll the stone aside!" Wait, what? Martha jumps in (typical Martha) to remind Jesus, in essence, that Lazarus has been dead four days, he surely smells and is decomposing, you don't want to move that stone!

John 11: 39

"Roll the stone aside, Jesus told them. But Martha, the dead man's sister, protested, Lord, he has been dead for four days. The smell will be terrible."

 ...Isn't it funny how sometimes we forget that God knows what He is doing, nothing takes him by surprise and he never makes a mistake. It can be hard to remember that when you have unmet expectations. In your mind you have already been let down, things didn't go the way they were suppose to go. I was suppose to have that job, I was suppose to have that raise, I was suppose to be in that location, I was suppose to have that life....In essence God, you made a mistake, you got it wrong, I had a plan and this is not it!

And so when we find ourselves in this mindset of "God is too late, God you have made a mistake, God this isn't according to my plan", we then become quick to stop or turn away from God's perfect plan. You see the blessing, the answered prayer for Martha and Mary was just behind that stone. The same stone Martha is shouting saying, NO, don't move that! The only thing behind there is death, dissatisfaction and sorrow! 

BUT GOD!!...But God is never late, never wrong, always faithful, and always right on time!  Thank you Jesus!

My God Is Powerful

Thankfully, Jesus' response wasn't "Oh you don't want me to move this stone? okay. And walk off". He asks Martha, in essence, if she believed his word. And Jesus continued to be faithful. Faithful to show his power, faithful to answer prayer in the only right way even when the sisters wanted an answer their specific way. 

John 11:40-44

"Jesus responded, Didn't I tell you that you would see God's glory if you believe? So they rolled the stone aside. Then Jesus looked up to heaven and said, Father, thank you for hearing me. You always hear me, but I said it out lout for the sake of all these people standing here, so that they will believe you sent me. Then Jesus shouted, Lazarus, come out! And the dead man came out, his hands and feet bound in graveclothes, his face wrapped in a headcloth. Jesus told them, Unwrap him and let him go!"


AMEN and AMEN.

So I sit here today with a prayer on my heart, asking God to Roll the Stones Aside in my heart. The places I have deemed as dead, speak life into them. You are the resurrection and the life Jesus, all who trust in you are made alive. I am not just made partially alive, all of me must come to life because in you is life and you are in me. Thank you Lord for the victory! You have called me a child of God. I can come to you with my prayers, concerns, worries and doubts and you will hear me and answer. 


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Sunday, September 7, 2025

Anxious for Nothing

"Don't Worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. 
Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. "
 ~Philippians 4:6~


Im sitting on my couch and I begin thinking of all the things I need to figure out, all the uncertainties, and all of the unmade decisions. Honestly, it becomes just a tornado of thoughts and emotions. As my thoughts are spiraling a song comes on my spotify called 

"Mighty God"

-Verse 1

Mighty God

I will follow you

You keep me safe

In the palm of your hand

You guide me up the mountain

You lead me in your will

My Father you are the fountain

There's power when I am still

-Chours

Mighty God

I will follow you

Soverieng God

I will follow you

All power is in your name

-Verse 2

Mighty God

I will follow you 

You made a way for my soul to stand

You crowned my head with glory

You tore apart the veil

You brought me into your mystery

You're bringing me deeper still

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God begins to remind me that He isn't worried, He is never anxious, and in Him there is never uncertainty.  So why am I anxious? I heard once that "The thing you find yourself worrying about the most is the exact place where you trust God the least". And oh how much truth this statement holds. 

My current job can be very dangerous and I must be able to trust the people leading me. If a situation is heightened and my leader isn't worried then I know we are good. Why? Because I can trust they know what they are doing and know the direction we should take. This should be even more so with Jesus right? He never sleeps or slumbers, He sees all and knows all, and He always has my best in mind. So if my leader, my shepherd, my God is my protector, defender and guide , I have nothing to fear or be anxious about because I can trust in his character and intention. 

Lets look at Psalms 25

Psalms 25: 1-5

"O Lord, I give my life to you. I trust in you, my God! Do not let my be disgraced, or let my enemies rejoice in my defeat. No one who trust in you will ever be disgraced, but disgrace comes to those who try to deceive others. Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you."

One thing I love about David is he gets honest with God. No matter what is going on in his life, whether he did wrong or others did, time and time again He comes back to his God who sees and hears his every word and cries out the promises of God. This is my prayer. My heart cries Lord here I am, take all of me, help me to trust you Jesus in every aspect of my life. You will point out the path for me to follow and you will lead me in truth and teach me as I journey... David says all day long I put my hope in you. No matter what is going on is my hope staying firm in God?

Psalms 25: 6-10

"Remember, O Lord, your compassion and unfailing love, which you have shown from long ages past. Do not remember the rebellious sins of my youth. Remember me in the light of your unfailing love, for you are merciful, O Lord. The Lord is good and does what is right; he shows the proper path to those who go astray. He leads the humble in doing right, teaching them his way. The Lord leads with unfailing love and faithfulness all who keep his covenant and obey his demands."

You know what, God is faithful. In small group today we touched on how faithful and good God is even in our unfaithfulness. Thank you Jesus that He keeps his promises despite my attitude. It is so good that when the Father looks at me, He sees his son Jesus and the perfect sacrifice that was in place for me. David cries out, that Gods love is unfailing and consistent all throughout the ages. 

Psalms 25: 11-15

"For the honor of your name, O Lord, forgive my many, many sins. Who are those who fear the Lord? He will show them the path they should choose. They will live in prosperity, and their children will inherit the land. The Lord is a friend to those who fear him. He teaches them his covenant. My eyes are always on the Lord, for he rescues me from the traps of my enemies"

David isn't just asking God to forgive him and redeem him for is own sake but for the Lord. Why? Because the Lords character is revealed and displayed for all to see. That he is a righteous, forgiving, compassionate God who takes seriously the path of his children. 

Psalms 25: 16-22

"Turn to me and have mercy, for I am alone and in deep distress. My problems go from bad to worse. Oh, save me from them all! Feel my pain and see my trouble. Forgive all my sins. See how many enemies I have and how viciously they hate me! Protect me! Rescue my life from them! Do not let me be disgraced for in you I will take refuge. May integrity and honesty protect me, for I put my hope in you. O God, ransom Israel form all its troubles"

Sometimes life and circumstances can feel a bit overwhelming. And when those times come, to whom do you set your eyes? To whom do you trust? To whom do you cry out? Where does your hope lie?  The answer should be Jesus. The One who will be your refuge, the one who is your hope and salvation. The God who sees all, hears all, knows all and acts always on time. 

My question is then today that I ask myself, where are the places that I I am worried and stressed? Then I am telling myself, take those same places and surrender it to God. Jesus can handle every burden and uncertainty. Rest in his truth. Connect to his presence and trust that He will never forsake me. 

Get alone, talk to God and take a listen to what He is telling you and asking you to surrender today:

Mighty God

Thank you Jesus for being always for me, never against me. Help me to follow you Lord wherever you lead me. Forgive me Lord when I allow my anxious thoughts to dwell in mind. Help me Holy Spirit to surrender the areas of my life I feel I need to control and hang on to the most. Your goodness and mercy will follow me all of my days, Help me to trust and obey. You are Holy and True. AMEN


Monday, March 31, 2025

Life's Broken Eggs

Sometimes life has broken eggs moments. You know the times where things just seem to shatter all at once and all you can do is just stare for a second and give out a long sigh.  You may wonder, did I purposefully break an egg for this post? Haha nope, I had a quite literal broken egg moment at the beginning of the week and I did just have to give a long sigh. But before I cleaned it up, I felt like I needed to take a picture because I thought it may become a blog topic. And sure enough, here I am at the end of the week (the start of a new week), drawing from this moment. 

As a Christian, there are times where I feel like a David. Asking God where are you, I am struggling , I am frustrated and tired. And it feels like I hear crickets in the night. It may not always feel like the living God who gave breath to you is in your midst, in the middle of your storm, your desert, or your dark night.  And the devil will use these times to feed doubt into your mind, feed lies that you aren't wanted, God doesn't hear you, you are being left to figure things out on your own. All of these lies are a tactic to keep you stuck in your thoughts, to keep your eyes on yourself and your situation rather than Jesus. Why? Because taking your eyes off of Jesus is taking your eyes off your anchor and hope. And what happens when you don't have an anchor and hope? Without an anchor you begin to drift , you begin to be swayed by the worries and cares of the world because you don't have anything keeping you grounded in truth and what is steady (Mark 4:19). Without hope you begin to feel hopeless and don't see purpose in your circumstances. 

I had a rough last week, well more so I had a rough couple days. I found myself asking God "why do I care so much"? And this question wasn't because I felt like I was doing too much good or anything. On the contrary, I felt like "why do I want to obey you Lord so much, because it's not always easy. It would be easier if I didn't care". Yes go ahead get all the gasps and shocking expressions out the way. I am just being honest because life isn't always flowers and rainbows and when we as Christians try to put on a front that life is that way we do more damage than good. 

Anyways, I felt stuck this week, and what happens when I feel stuck, I quickly find myself in pit with no way out. So I am feeling this way at work, and I know I need worship music playing because if I don't my mind will continue to wonder into all the what ifs...Side note: You know music transforms the atmosphere. If you know me, I am always playing music and I do this because it just sets the rhythm of space you are in...So back to my story, in the midst of my questioning God this song  Clean Heart comes on and it brought me to tears. I had to stop what I was doing go to a quiet place get on my knees, pray and repent. I was leaning into fear rather than faith and God was so good to gently guide my eyes back to his Word. His goodness and kindness leads his children to repentance. He isn't scolding because you doubt or question, his arms are open to bring comfort and healing. It was at this moment a divine peace came over me. I felt it in my body the heaviness I was feeling most of the day dissipated, I felt like I could think and breath again. The next song that came on was Set My Eyes . You see,the Lord first drew me close to Him through repentance then He opened my eyes to remind me that He is in my midst, He has never left and all I need to do is gaze upon Him and the storm won't seem so grand because He is bigger than the waves.  I mean at this point all I could be is thankful, God was telling me I am with you always, keep focused on Me. 

God had turned my day around in two songs. How? By pointing me back to Himself, and off of the situation around me, off of my feelings and back to truth.  Psalm 51: 10 is a cry from David of repentance. David knew who he could turn to for forgiveness and restoration. That is what Christians must remember, that they can turn to the living God who doesn't shame them for their doubt, questions, or frustrations but rather He opens his arms even wider saying "I see you still come to me, I am big enough for all of your thoughts, questions and frustrations. Trust me with them".   Hebrew 12 reminds us to keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, don't give up. It is a reminder that God's discipline and correction to His children is out of Love, to bring them even closer to Himself.

You see I knew the answer to my question to God "why do I care so much" I was asking this out of frustration, I was leaning into fear. Why do I care so much? Because I love God so much, He loves me so much. He only ever wants what is good for me and I only ever want to please Him and bring honor to His name. Jesus died for me, He gave his life  and was resurrected from the dead so that I don't have to fear death (John 3:16-21). I can come boldly to the throne room of God and dwell in his presence (Hebrews 4:16). I have an everlasting hope whose name is Jesus (1 Peter 1: 3-9).

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God hears. God sees. God loves, listens and answers.  

Thank you Lord for your goodness, thank you Lord for you kindness and steadfastness. Thank you Holy Spirit for your comforting voice and hand in my life. I will sing praises to you Jesus all the days of my life. You are my strong tower, the one I find hope, my anchor and source of joy. Let your love abound in my life and in my mind. You are holy and worthy of all honor and praise. Let my life be a living sacrifice for you. In Jesus Name AMEN

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Psalm 51:2 "Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me" 

Hebrews 12:1-2a "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith."

Psalm 73:26 "My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever."

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If you didn't already listen to the songs above I am inviting you to take a listen. Take some time out your day and just sit in the goodness of God. Be reminded of his Love for you. Repent if you need to. Draw near to Him, He isn't ashamed of you, He wants to hear your heart and He wants you to hear his heart for you!

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